Thankgiving

We had a nice Thanksgiving we all the yummy food and friends. We missed family this year, since Bill is working a contract he doesn't get pay holidays or paid vacation. So we can't afford to missed 2 days of pay because since he lost his job last year we live paycheck to paycheck and we still trying to recover for the last 9 month of unemployment. He missed two days this week anyways,(because he went on job interview) so let see how this month go.

But today I wanted to talked about being grateful. But bear with me I'm taking you trough my emotional ride about being grateful. I have a class with a professor that is a women, a marketer, has traveled the world, extremely educated, it is a mother and wife. When I was first  introduced to her, I thought :  wow, she is all I want to be! a course she is a little bit older than me, however if I wanted to accomplish all that she has, I have to say: I'm real behind. Although I don't envied her life, I wish I had some of those things in my life right now. I wish I had more, not all but I will love to drive a reliable car, have medical insurance and most of all I will love for my family to be out of debt. So on Thanksgiving day I woke up wanting to be grateful since I do have things to be grateful for, but I opened my Facebook and saw one of my friends 10th wedding anniversary trip to Europe . I thought  about my 10th wedding anniversary we were unemployed. I became so discourage. Then I started thinking why am I so ungrateful? does being grateful means that you are just happy with what  you have? I think I know that answer but I think being grateful is just a little bit complicated. At least for me right now. But why, well as a family we are still in limbo since we don't have a permanent job, meanwhile we have no medical insurance, we can nearly pay our mortgage, our cars are about to die  and if they breakdown can afford to repair them.and lets not forget all the expenses that coming our way due to the kids education and mine.

So why am I grateful for this year? Well I'm immersible grateful for my Saviour Jesus Christ and his atonement for me, for his gospel and all the he provides for me everyday. I'm grateful for my family, my husband, my kids, my parents, my brother and all my real friend (not just Facebook kind of friends). I'm grateful for my house because it is more than a house it is my home. This year I found one more thing to be grateful for, that even when I don't have all the things I need and want  in my life I so lucky to have it in my life. I'm grateful for "opportunity". Opportunity to live a life with those who I love, opportunity to succeeded, opportunity to educate myself, opportunity to proved myself to my Father above, opportunity to have it all, opportunity to grow, to be happy and overcome everything that come my way. The opportunity to be just me. That means that I have been dealt a separate set of circuntances and I have the opportunity to overcome them, for that I'm extremely grateful.